Last monday I was browsing through the Beg Barter Buy Sell Cypress page on facebook. I was orginally looking for clothes for myself, but I didn't find any. What I did find was a really nice play kitchen that a woman had listed for $75.
Jude loves to play with his friend Lillian's play kitchen whenever we are at her house, and I figured when Mercy is old enough she would probably like it too. My mom had given me some money for my birthday/Christmas and I still had some left. So I texted the phone number on the listing and asked if she would be willing to sell it for $50, which was the max of what I had decided I was willing to pay for it - I like to make a deal on a deal (-: She said she was not willing to take less than $65 for it. I tried to tempt her to take my offer by telling her things like, "I will pick it up today!" but my deal sweetening attempts were unsuccessful. However, she did tell me that if she hadn't sold it by Friday she would get back to me.
As the day went on, I kept thinking about the play kitchen - I really wanted it for my kids! Eventually I started thinking, "its only $15 more... thats not worth losing it." "I should just pay the $65 to make sure I get it." I was wrestling with myself about it and I finally asked the Lord what I should do.
He told me to wait, that he wanted me to have it for the price I had offered. Well, okay. I asked him if there was anything he wanted me to declare about it, and I felt like he wanted me to speak out that the woman's heart was coming into alignment with what God desired for her kitchen. So I declared it out loud, then let it go...
...until Tuesday. I actually took the time to scroll down, down, down, what seemed like forever until I found that listing again so I could check the comments and see if anyone else had made an offer on it. So far no one had, which of course made me feel a little relief.
On Wednesday I went to the page to check again, but as I was scrolling the Lord asked me, "Do you not trust that I have it sorted?" I recognized that I had no control over any of the players left in the game, and that my worrying and checking up on it was not going to do anything but tempt me to disobey the Lord. He wanted me to have it for $50, I already knew that. But the woman's final decision was still in play. That is why he had me declare that her heart was aligning with His desire.
I had never really thought about it before. If I was in her position, I would probably just take the highest offer I recieved... but what if God wanted someone with a lower offer to have it. Would I be listening to hear him about it, and willing to take less? Food for thought.
So I released it completely to the Lord. I let it go, if it wasn't to be mine, then I would believe Him to bring something better around. And instead of praying that no other offers would come in like I had been hoping, I blessed the woman selling it, and asked the Lord to help her make the best decision.
I didn't check the listing again, the pull toward it left my mind after I let it go to the Lord. But on Friday morning, I was on it! Around 8:45 I texted the lady asking if she still had it.
I was so excited when I saw her response - "Yes I do, and it's yours for $50."
*Jude pretending to wash his hands*
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